Monday, October 27, 2014

Sweet Sixteen

Hello everybody!
Sorry for the late post, but this week has been hectic. It might be partially my fault... I probably shouldn't have procrastinated that much. Oops. But I'm here!
The main reason why I didn't post was because I was at my friend's Sweet 16 on Saturday. We went to dinner at Pier 115 Bar & Grill. The view was breathtaking, but it was so cold and windy. I would've taken a lot of pictures except I was too cold to move. I was definitely not going to take off my jacket to take a picture. Sorry, but I would rather be warm than show off my dress. 
As for the food at Pier 115, it was mediocre, really nothing to talk about. 
Here's the dress I wore to her party:

(Forever 21; simiar: x/x)

(Forever 21;  x/x/x)

I hoped your liked this post. Again, sorry for the delay, but you know how school can be. I'm so excited for Friday because it's HALLOWEEN! Yay!!! I'm dressing up as a cat this year, what are you dressing up as?

Thanks so much for reading. I'll see you soon!
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Saturday, October 18, 2014

Stress and Anxiety

Hello everybody!
I'm going to do a quick post today about stress and anxiety. 
I guess I'm a naturally stressful person; I literally stress about everything. The top two things that are giving me major stress are school and volleyball. It's not that other people are giving me pressure, it's all internal. I over think too much and I end up getting anxiety attacks. 

I wouldn't say I have an anxiety problem but I do get anxiety attacks more often than I should. Yes, it's normal to stress about a test or a big game, but not to the point where you feel sick, you want to cry, or even worse, just die. 

I've watched YouTube videos about anxiety, like Zoella's Anxiety Q&A (x) and they make me feel so much better knowing that I'm not the only one going through this. I'm not crazy and I'm not alone. 

During my anxiety attacks, I feel sick, my hands shake like crazy, I have trouble breathing, I can't think, and I feel completely out of it. 

This happens a lot when I'm studying for tests. I end up not being able to study for an hour or two because my brain will not function. Sometimes I start crying. I hate it when it happens because then I get even more anxious that I don't have enough time left to study. 

I never thought I would have anxiety problems while playing volleyball. I absolutely love playing volleyball; I love the rush of adrenaline I get from it and the sense of accomplishment. But during games, I get into my own head and start beating myself up. This makes me dread playing volleyball. There was this one game where I almost started crying. I was so glad when my coach took me out, or else I would have started crying. 

I never used to have this kind of anxiety. It started last year when I had a really bad anxiety attack that my mom wouldn't let me go to school the next day. After that, I feel like they've been happening more frequently. 
I am most definitely no expert on anxiety and I haven't had as much experience with it as other people, but I want to share what I do to calm myself down. 

First, I stop whatever's making me stressed. Then, I try to control my breathing. It doesn't help if my carbon dioxide levels are out of whack. There's this whole scientific thing behind it, but basically, when you hyperventilate, you're breathing too fast and releasing too much carbon dioxide, which is bad. So you need to control your breathing, or breathe into a paper bag to reinhale carbon dioxide. 

Once my breathing is under (some what) control, I try to relax and calm down. Crying and releasing my emotions always makes me feel better. My head feels so much clearer after a good cry.
I put so much pressure on myself that sometimes I forget what's important. Getting straight A's is nice, but that's not all that matters in life. A few B's won't kill you. It's important to make sure your body and your mind is healthy because you only get one of each in your life. You're stuck with them until you die, so make sure it's healthy. 

Then, I take a break and do something that makes me feel happy or relaxed. I watch YouTube videos, listen to music, go on tumblr, watch TV, or read blogs. 

After I've taken a break, I refocus on my task. This time, I do everything slowly and calmly. I keep reassuring myself that everything is okay and it's not the end of the world if I fail. 

Some things I've noticed that sort of trigger my anxiety, apart from stress, are lack of sleep and caffeine. Not sleep and drinking coffee by themselves don't make me anxious, but combine them with stress and it's a recipe for disaster. This doesn't help because I have to drink coffee to get through my late night study sessions. I know I should have better study habits and study beforehand, but is such a hard habit the change. 

It helps to have good habits. Eating well, exercising, and sleeping definitely help. 

This is such a personal topic to talk about because everything happens inside my head and I've never really talked to anyone about it. 

Feel free to comment down below about anything, like your anxiety or any tips you have. 

Thanks so much for reading. I'll see you soon!

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Saturday, October 11, 2014


Hello everybody!
For this week's post, I am going to do the TMI tag so you guys can get to know me better. If you're interested, great! Thanks! If you're not, oh well *shrugs*. 
I got these questions from Marcus Butler's video: TOO MUCH INFORMATION 
I changed some questions a tiny bit to fit my needs, but most of them are the same.

1. What are you wearing?
Sweats. More specifically, Hollister sweat pants and Pink sweatshirt. It's a Saturday of a long weekend, give me a break.

2.  Ever been in love?

3. Ever been in a terrible break up?
I didn't think it was that terrible, but it might have been terrible for him....

4. How tall are you?
5 feet 4 inches

5. How much do you weigh?
120 lbs

6. Any tattoos?

7. Any piercings?

8. Ever had a mustache? 

9. OPT?
Fitzsimmons. So many feels right now... I literally can't!!

10. Favorite show?
I have way more than one. But my favorite one that's airing right now is Agents of Shield. I cry every episode.

11. Something you miss

12. Favorite song?
Right now it's Out of the Blue's cover of "Rather Be" by Clean Bandit. I don't know why I'm obsessed with these boys...

13. Zodiac Sign?

14. Quality you look for in a partner?
Humor and respect

15. Favorite quote?
"Dreams are like stars, you may never catch them, but if you follow them, they will lead you to your destiny." -Liam Payne

16. Favorite actor?
Dylan O'Brien

17. Favorite color?

18. Loud music or soft?

19. Where do you go when you're sad?

20. How long does it take you to shower?
10-15 minutes

21. How long does it take for you to get ready in the morning?
Usually 30 minutes

22. Turn on?
Someone that makes me laugh

23. Turn off?

24. Reason I joined blogspot?
I wanted to write about things I love and hopefully other people will enjoy them too.

25. Fears?
I'll give you a short list, or else we'll be here all day: spiders, heights, failing, embarrassing myself, and dying

26. Last thing that made you cry?
It was either school stress or Agents of Shield, I can't remember.

27. Last time you said you love someone.
Does it count if I say it to someone on my computer screen?

28. The meaning behind your blog name.
Some of my friends call my Cloudy and I liked the word "ethereal"

29. Last book you read.
The 100 by Kass Morgan

30. The book you're currently reading
The Great Gatsby by Scott Fitzgerald

31. Last show you watched
Once Upon a Time

32. Last person you talked to
My mom. We talked about my volleyball game.

33. Relationship w/ the last person you texted
A group message between me and my best friends who live far away.

34. Favorite food

35. Place you want to visit
Great Britain

36. Last place you were
I've been stuck in the US for quite awhile.... stupid SAT prep kept me from traveling :(

37. Do you have a crush?

38. Last time you kissed someone

39. Last time you were insulted

40. Favorite flavor of sweet

41. What instruments do you play?
Piano, flute, and I used to be able to play the viola.

42. Favorite piece of jewelry
I've been wearing two rings that Riv gave me recently. I guess they're my favorite as of right now.

43. Last sport you played

44. Last song you sang
"Rather Be" at my school's pep rally yesterday

45. Favorite chat up line
I don't have one

46. Have you ever used it

47. Last time you hung out with someone
Last Sunday

48. Who should answer these questions next?

There you go, all about me! Sorry if this was a boring post, but I thought it was quite fun! I wanted to do something quick since I took the SATs and had a volleyball game today. I didn't really have a lot of time to make up a big post.

Thanks so much for reading. I'll see you soon!
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Saturday, October 4, 2014

OOTD: Green Skirt

Hello everybody!
It's October already! I swear I just did my August favorites yesterday. I'm not doing a September favorites since I haven't really been doing much because of school. I don't know, do you want to see my favorite highlighter? 
The weather here has been a bit crazy. It went all the way up to 80 degrees Fahrenheit. This is why I have trust issues. I thought autumn was supposed to cooler.
Well, here's an outfit that's a bit summery and a bit autumny (yeah, I just made up that word). 

I think the sleeves on this shirt are so cool:

(Charlotte Russe)
Unfortunately, I couldn't find any similar shirts. This shirt is just too unique I guess! The shirt is very thin and slightly see through. So if you can find a shirt like that, props to you. 

(Urban Outfitters; similar: x/x/x)

(Macy's; similar: x/x/x

 (Forever 21; similar: x/x/x)

I hope you liked this outfit! I felt very tall wearing it to school; two inches is a pretty big difference. Sorry about the title, I'm terrible at coming up with titles. 
I was thinking about doing an About Me tag next week so you guys could get to know me a bit better, what do you guys think?

Thanks so much for reading. I'll see you soon!

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